Help me...

Merry Christmas!

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't been active. I'm sorry. Its really hard to run a blog when nobody reads it and people tell you to never to give up but its hard. I guess I'm a girl who cant find her place in the world , you know how hard that is?  Really hard , and then everyone expects you to be perfect and a role model and you cant do anything wrong and when you do something 'wrong' they say their disappointed in you. That hurts. I really want to give up but I cant, it feels as i'm not allowed because my friends and family would be sad , but secretly , I have a feeling that if I just vanished they wouldn't care - I'm the friend everyone secretly hates and is just being nice too so I would leave them alone. Does anyone else ever feel like this? In am just another number , stack me up , I'll crumble and drift along . I am just another nothing...
It's like i'm screaming and nobody can hear me...

Why fear the dark? Monsters are always shown in light.
Do not take me for granted again.

ARGHHH SHOPPING HAUL!!!!!!!!!!!! x