Help me...

Merry Christmas!

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't been active. I'm sorry. Its really hard to run a blog when nobody reads it and people tell you to never to give up but its hard. I guess I'm a girl who cant find her place in the world , you know how hard that is?  Really hard , and then everyone expects you to be perfect and a role model and you cant do anything wrong and when you do something 'wrong' they say their disappointed in you. That hurts. I really want to give up but I cant, it feels as i'm not allowed because my friends and family would be sad , but secretly , I have a feeling that if I just vanished they wouldn't care - I'm the friend everyone secretly hates and is just being nice too so I would leave them alone. Does anyone else ever feel like this? In am just another number , stack me up , I'll crumble and drift along . I am just another nothing...
It's like i'm screaming and nobody can hear me...

Why fear the dark? Monsters are always shown in light.
Do not take me for granted again.

ARGHHH SHOPPING HAUL!!!!!!!!!!!! x

I'm that one unimportant friend , that if I wasn't there it wouldn't make a difference and everybody would still be happy. ~ Sound familiar to anyone?



Oh and she says to me ''Want to come to the cinema? I'll have to ask Lacey though first ''
 I say ''Yeah Okay!''

Monday:

''I cant wait to go to the cinema Lacey , Mieh is coming too :D '' and im just sat there think well you just asked me yesterday?!

Tuesday :

''Oh Lola!(me) Can you tell Lacey the times for the cinema on instagram''
''Yeah sure.''
''Fanks! ''
''So how you gonna sit?''
''Well like this : Lacey , Me , Henry , Lenal and Mieh im hoping lol''
''Oh wont Mieh get lonley?''
''I dont know lol ''

And all that time im like WTH!!! WHAT ABOUT ME!?!!?!?!?
But I dont care im going with my real friends! :P :D xx

As I sit in my corner and think about your lies,
I have nothing else to do but break down and cry.
You knew it would end,
You knew it would die,
You knew one day we'd have to say goodbye.
You told me you loved me,
You told me you cared
But the rage inside had slowly flared.
The moments we shared replay in my head
Along with all the sweet lies you said.
You thought it was a game
You thought you'd win
But in the end you felt nothing within.
Deep down inside there was a big empty space
That I now realize you couldn't replace.
Something about you helped me see
That without love I'm finally free.
Free from pain,
Free from lies,
Free from having tear filled eyes.
Without your love I finally see
All the horrid things you've come to be.

This . Is. So . True.

Every day is a struggle to silence my insanity. xxx Stay strong hunnies! xx

Sorry for the spam of posts , I'm just having a hard time now, because
well theirs this boy and he is just...well you don't want to here it
because even I know were not meant to be. xx

Dont ever.

I love this movie. It has a powerful message . Words Hurt PEOPLE!